Not too sure

You know when you have the feeling that you want to write something but your not sure what it is. When there is so much running around in your head, but you can’t seem to catch it. That’s how I feel right now.

Never again if I can help it

My whole life I wanted a dog for a pet, ask my mom or sister. We tried cats once or twice but frankly cats don’t give a fuck for the most part and can get along with out you.

I got Chantz just over 3 years ago now, he’s still a baby by rights, acts like one too. One of my regrets is that I reformatted my main computer and deleted his baby pictures.

Like how can you not have a dog if you are a dog lover. I will never not have a dog if I have the ability and space to have one. Why not who else is going to love me no matter what I do. Never judge me. Always be happy to see me.

One more step to becoming a adult

Today Ryan and I went to the bank to set up a safety deposit box for me and a savings account for him. In talking to the bank associate she asked if I wanted to set up a Mutual fund, which was what Ryan was there for actually. Since I know me and how lazy I am I set one up for myself as well.  When I finally set up a will I will be yet one more step closer to becoming an adult.

What a scary thought besides growing old, having to grow up.

She’s going home.

So ends another visit from Mom. This one was a little different from most of her other visits. We actually had a couple of heated discussions (fights) something that I haven’t done with her in a long time. Damn she pushed me though.

I’ve tried not to be like she was when I was growing up. When it came to school for the boys. I want them to go don’t be fooled, but the world won’t end for them if they don’t it didn’t for me. It seems that every parent wants better for their children and I would be lying if I said i didn’t as well. Even their arguments that they wouldn’t be who they are now if we would have had more money, do not sway the fact that I wish that I would have been able to give them all the things that I couldn’t. But back to the rant, so we went to go get Nathan’s report card before going to see Ryan walk the stage and get his diploma and while waiting I said that Ryan’s girlfriend was moving to Toon town in the fall and that he would be spending a lot of time there. I might have gone so far as to tell the old girl that they were planning on moving in together, they were and the thought better of the idea for now. Any how she proceeded to tell me that it was wrong for them to move in together and that nothing good could come of it. Now I’m not stupid for the most part and I know that I would prefer if they didn’t, but as I said the world won’t end if they do.

The second point of contention arose when upon looking at Nathan’s report card she stated that it would be a waste for him not to go to some sort of post secondary education. I told her that I didn’t like pressuring the boys and trying to make the go to school, I hope that I have encouraged them to do so. Again I’m not a fool, but go when your ready not when your parents, grandparents of anyone else tells you to go, you won’t be happy.

I kinda figured at this point that the rest of this visit was going to be very long if I didn’t stop letting her say what she wants to say fortunately she hasn’t said much that I haven’t heard before so I can live with it.

Just a final note, I do love my Mom, I just prefer her from a distance.

Why a Black Otter???

Many people ask me why I associate myself with the otter. I could just say because I do but the truth is that I like the animal…who can argue with eating, sleeping and having sex for fun.

Hello world!

Well I tried this before but it didn’t take….we’ll try again and see how it goes.